Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Good Grief

I've noticed, recently, that our Ana has been preoccupied with silver, gray, and white hair, running her hands through her Physical Therapists hair and counting my shiny silver strands. 

My sweet girl was in the midst of grieving the loss of her mobility, following surgery, and the loss of her independence. But, despite my knowing it, she was grieving another loss that was far more profound. 

I scooped her up and cuddled her close as tears welled up in her big brown eyes and she opened up that deep secret place inside her and let me see a part of her beautiful soul. 

"I don't like gray hair because it makes me think of old people and old people die and I don't want you to die because I just got you." 

Oh, what deep longing these orphans have to simply belong to someone! 

Grieving is healthy and good and without direction that grief can be so confusing to these little souls.
James 14:18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

In the Daily

Daily therapy
working hard to work her legs

wore her right out!

Her right leg doesn't want to cooperate

smiling sweetie pie

Daily VOWs
 Hebrews 12:1
 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Daily chows

Edible spoon!

Daily moves
7 miles thus far this week

5K this Sunday! 


Sunday, April 5, 2015

Motivation Monday

We are complicated creatures that can be divided into mind, body and soul and because we are complicated creatures we need accountability to keep ourselves on track. 

Here is my weekly breakdown of mind, body and soul goals. 

Mind Goals: 
Declutter my desk because clutter makes me INSANE!
Yes, just one goal this week...we have 4 days of therapy for the next month or so and that is exhausting!
Body Goals:
 Easy Run...
Speedwork..i.e. Fartlek...(yes, its a for real word!)
Hill Repeats
Long Run

Soul Refresh Shred workouts 3x's this week.

Menu plans:

For the family:
Cowboy Burgers
French Toast
Fried Rice
Chicken Broccoli Braid
Spagetti Dinner Fundraiser
Chicken Pot Pie

Mom's Menu Plan: 
Lentil Stuffed Peppers
 Cauliflower Fried Rice

 Soul Goals:
Daily devotional time in the Word
Make a {VOW}

Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

Mark 12:30
 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.



Monday, March 23, 2015

A Return to Outdoor Running

What is the first thing you look forward to each spring? Is it the return to out of doors activities because that sure was my motivation this last weekend...a return to all things outside!

I'm not exactly a winter road runner...while our County and City do a fab job on the roads for driving I tend to be cautious about running on the ice and snow. After yearly revisits of a badly sprained ankle I just don't want to risk it. 

Enter the first 5k of the season!
We Ran for the House with our bible study group and had a ton of fun! 

The bonus? 

Setting a PR in the 5K while pushing the 35# nearly 8 yr old clad in a spica brace/cast in the BOB stroller. 

Are you a winter road runner?
Do you find yourself a bit overly cautious on certain terrain or under certain conditions? 

Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

~*RAD: Scribble Scrabble*~

One universal trait of my RADiant blessings is the need to control. When Sunshine was 4 yrs old we began homeschooling him, along with brother J.J., and we kept it simple by utilizing workbooks because it took 2 solid years of repetition before he was age appropriate in academics.  Often, there would be coloring involved, and for Sunshine, this usually meant scribbling. 

At first it drove me nuts...I knew what this child was capable of, I knew how nicely he could color and it didn't look like scribble. After a bit of time I began to realize it was a need to control his situation and not an inability to be neat. While I wanted to allow him some control I still needed him to be able to color somewhat nicely for educational purposes. Honestly, we never did figure out the right solution for him, yet, eventually he outgrew it. 

My joy-boy, Dalton, will scribble, yet, his RAD is slight enough that we are able to require a "do over" and that usually solves the attitude. Analina, is so similar to Sunshine in behavior, at times, it is almost scary.

I pulled Sunshine aside and asked him if he remembered doing it and why. He cannot remember doing it but he said, even now, that he will be in middle of coloring and become angry because he just doesn't want to anymore and wants to be done RIGHT THEN, therefore, scribbling to be done sooner.

I want to teach my children from hard places to follow through with what they start and to do each task with their very best effort.

We give choices and options, where available, to our children so they feel they do have some control. Controlling is a cornerstone behavior for kids with RAD.

How do you give your children with RAD "control" without them being controlling? Giving choices and options where available? Other ideas and suggestions welcome! 

Titus 2:6
Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled.    

Saturday, March 14, 2015

~*Large Family Living: Sickness*~

What's a large family to do when illness strikes?

Suitable Shortcuts:

Paper plates, etc; hello, I am not insane!

Clorox wipes or simple soapy/bleach water.

Sprite, graham crackers, applesauce, toast, etc. 

LOTS of these babies! 

A really good sense of humor because you are going to have one heckuva Mt Washmore to conquer!


Movies to plug your children into, because, hello, I am not insane! 

When the storm begins to calm, along with your tummy, expect to spend several days cleaning up and possibly retraining your children who may have momentarily forgotten that we don't actually watch t.v. 24/7 the rest of our lives! 

Erika, over at Large Families on Purpose, has an exhaustive list if you want more details...

What is your fave comfort routine when illness strikes? 

Psalm 30:2

Lord my God, I called to you for help,
    and you healed me.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

~*Praise Him in the Storm*~

I know we talk about praising HIM in the storm...well, there has been more beseeching and downright begging than praising, lately, to be completely honest.

When we stepped forward to adopt two medically complex children we knew they were a bit of a mystery, however, the amount of medical surprises has been, well, surprising!

After Dalton's headache/vomiting episode in February that ended with his first and, prayerfully last, seizure we knew that we would be fooling ourselves if we thought it would never happen again. I've been holding my breath a bit, lately, hoping that it wouldn't happen again so soon but the headaches are back. 

They are different now, despite his migraine and seizure medication, which makes everything seem new all over again. With medically complex children situations change so often and so quickly that security is an illusion.

~*Medical Trauma*~ 

I know that some physicians disagree that this even exists but I put them up there with those crazy coots who thought the earth was flat, they are just delusional! 

Trauma exists in all forms. From repeated events over a period of time to one isolate traumatic situation.

A freaky situation, like Dalton's seizure, with head injury, separation from mom for several hours, tests upon tests, extreme pain, etc can cause severe anxiety in children. 

For a child with past trauma to experience a new trauma is very difficult to work through. 

While I'm begging and pleading with my Lord to heal my kiddo of these ailments I am, also, clinging to those who have walked this road ahead of me to share their wisdom on helping my child through this painful and difficult time. 

Pray for the kid will ya???